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Hey aliens! I am Adira Faisal. Eighteen. Malaysia. I give and get plenty of hugs! I speaks out everything in my mind. I have an attention span of a spongebob. I don't listen to people. My feelings are not always mutual. I love everything that involves with hitting.
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Date: Friday, April 1, 2016 Time: 8:49 AM It's Not Meant To Be Us 
I think I let him go tonight. Knowing how hurts I hurted him while I was hurting. He let me go too. Just now was the most intense conversation I guess, but I'm happy. I am happy that he finally speak up what he feels. I would love to hear that since day one I am with him. Even that he will say that he hates me. I want to know. I always want to know what he feels and wants him to express him feelings. Cause thats what I silently taught him to do.
I let him go tonight. Because I know he can't stand being with me. I always say to myself that one who deserve me is one who can accept me inside out. So I let him go. Sad, but I love it. I love it that he finally can stand bout what he thinks is right eventhough it can hurt people. Eventhough he can hurt me. Cause thats what I silently taught him to do.
So I let him go tonight. Because he told me that I am too overly-attached. I thought it would be good (HEHEHE), he think its too much and it leads to argument. I strongly disagreed but then he still with what he thinks. By that, I am glad. I am glad that he finally knows how to stick with what he thinks. Eventhough he had to make me cry for that. Cause thats what I silently taught him to do.
Baby, its such a sweet moments everytime I am with you. You will never know cause you never see me smiling everytime you look away. Eventhough its such a short period of time, I am glad. For everytime you think I actually being mean to you, you could learn something from it. You never know what I am trying to make you without changing who you are. Put you down for you to get up.
Thank you for giving me chance to do all those things that I did for you and with you. But after what you said, I think its enough. I think my presence to give you some values doesn't means anything anymore. And I am glad. I'm glad to know that you gave up. You might not say it, but I get it. This probably would be the last thing that I write about you. I hope it gives you feel if you read this in future.
So, I let you go tonight. For you to accept any other person your whole heart even she will gives you pain. Cause pain, that what makes you.
Finally. I let you go.
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