Cause these days I've been feeling abit unsure about us. 

Scary. I do. These feelings I have in me is weird. I can't keep my mind shut at night. But not by thinking bout us anymore. It used to, it does. I was thinking if this will be worth. I was thinking if us will matter in future. You're everything to me right now. I meant I couldn't imagine how can I love someone better than I love you. It tears me inside knowing that we are not like how we used to be anymore.

I hope you could listen to me. I hope you want to. Even it is about something that you don't really like to hear but I hope you could hear all my rants and tell me that it wasn't true. But instead, all you did is telling me that I was overthinking and you don't want to listen to anything that I am going to say about that. 

Do you remember that night when we were walking. We were just holding hands, but it feels like we own the whole world. That feels so surreal, like the feeling of scared of letting go cause I think my arms love to be wrapped around yours that time. I love those simple things we had before and how we celebrated little things like you would gave me 3 anklets on that same night just to make me feel appreciated. I love how you showed me your effort to win my heart everyday.

Effort. That is one of the reasons what made me choose you. But now, I'm not sure if you're still bother to do that. For the first time after a year and 8 months being with you, I feel like I'm not sure of this. I think when people said that "people will only try hard to get you, they will stop when you belong to them", it makes sense now. Maybe you're too comfortable with the idea of me belong to you. 

Maybe you will only realised when I'm gone.