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Hey aliens! I am Adira Faisal. Eighteen. Malaysia. I give and get plenty of hugs! I speaks out everything in my mind. I have an attention span of a spongebob. I don't listen to people. My feelings are not always mutual. I love everything that involves with hitting.
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Hey peeps. You're currently in Adira Faisal's blog. I write good and bad things happen to my life here.I hate living in this society of mine. There are too much of judging & people oftenly labels some people without knowing them. It makes people scared to speaks out their mind or gives their own opinions. So I don't accept any bad thoughts here. But thanks for viewing! :D
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Date: Monday, June 1, 2015 Time: 7:12 AM Remember How Uncomfortable I Made You Feel?  I was laying on my bed that time when they were watching some random videos on youtube. One of my friend approached me & asked "Still feeling bad?", I said yes. I honestly don't even know what happen to me but I don't feel good. I stood still under the shower & my thought were totally blank. I was just stand there & felt the water ran on my skin and I found that I lost myself that time. I know what exactly what I want but what I want is not something that I will get, so I kind of upset. I remember bumped into one of my senior in college earlier. She got something nais going on with my classmate which is supposed to be my senior too but he stucks in my batch cse he's not doing well throughout the semester. I envy the relationship they were having until I know that they broke up cse of the very simple thing, well atleast for me. I'm scared. I'm scared if love alone with all my heart to him won't be enough. I'm scared what awaits in the future for both of us. God, I really love him. Words can't be enough to describe how much I love this one asshole of mine. I would cry my eyeballs out & bleed if I have, to make this works. I was thinking if one day I will laying on the cold floor in the dark room crying for him & there will be one person come out to me & ask "if loving him can makes you hurt, why you still doing it?", I will totally answer that "He worth the pain.". No doubt, he is. He is like a tidal wave into my being, a crashing of noise in my silent & quiet mind. I just love him cse it's him, that's all that I need to understand. I wish he could see himself as well as I do. I wish he actually know that behind all those sorrows & fights we are having, I still love him. I wish I could tell him those smallest things that I see in him. That his chest is my favourite place to lay on. That holding his hand can makes me feel like home. That he looks cute everytime he smiles. That he is so patience & don't give up easily. I wish he know that I love all his flaws & weaknesses. I wish he knows that I crave for him every second of my life. I wish he knows that I really really love him & I want to do it for the rest of my life. |