Love. You think you know what does it means,  you say that word almost all the time when you're actually not (you don't know what it is). "If you love someone, show it.", I'm so sure that you've heard this phrase but I'm sorry, that's actually not the right way, for me. You don't have to show it, it doesn't makes sense for me cause I always pretending to love people and physically show it, with the truth that they trust me without knowing that I was just pretending, if you know what I mean. 

You've to love someone all your heart, sincerely. If that's the pure feelings in you towards that one, they will feel it. Just in case when you say "I love you" thousands times, I still don't believe, if that's true, cause everyone can say that words without mean it, right? 

That's the ultimate feelings that even you can't explain it. Do you ever watch or read love stories? The part that everyone even you waiting for is the ending. There's a happy ending and yet, there's a terribly awful ending. And you're hoping if you're in those stories. you want a good happy ending like Romeo and Juliet but one thing you don't understand is...

They are just stories.

I don't force everyone to stay. I know everyone is leaving. Leaving to some place far far way from me or maybe, it's time for them to go. I can't tell if it is really my fault or it has been written. Be realistic. There are alot kinds of love. You're still can find your love with everything around you. Love everything that you do, love your family and friends, love your life and love yourself. At one point of life, all of those people who leaving doesn't matter anymore. Keep living.

Dear, Aiman Nafis.

I am so done with us. And I know that in a long period of time, I'll forget you. I will let everything in the past and forget about us. I have to moved on with my life,without you. But things happen for a reason,as everyone quotes, and I guess our reason was that it was time to close that chapter of our lives and live on to create a new one.Yes, I was mad at you for the things that you said and did, I was full of bitterness for the way that we ended things. 

There was a time when I wanted nothing to do with you. At some point, I did want to erase you out of my life, as if I never met you. But we're completely strangers after this cause I don't want to see anything that get to do with you anymore, and we know nothing of each other. And I’m okay with that. Because i know that the memories still remain.

I’m sorry for just leaving, cause I thought I deserve better.