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Date: Sunday, January 20, 2013 Time: 2:23 AM The Pain.
This feelings of sadness is annnoying. But I guess I have to start moving forward doing what best for myself. It's so weird. You know, I can laugh as hard as I want to but those feelings won't leave. I miss eveything. I miss everyone in school. I miss my friends but most of them are busy now. Nevermind. Come to think of it, I always spending my nights thinking about stuff that actually can brings me down. You tell me how am I gonna tell of these things in my head so then I will be abit relief? You have to tell me. Cause I don't know what to do anymore. I can feel my heart falling and sometimes I forgot to remind myself to catch a breath. What I actually want in my life? I remember when Ustazah Faeqah hugs me saying that I'm going to through alot of things after I done with highschool. I took what she said very lightly thinking that my life would be easier. But there's another meaning of all the 'things' she meant in her words. Isn't just about what I'm going through physically but the feelings inside that makes things even worse. I'm going to makes this world a great place to live by surrounded myself with a good lovely people but some people are fake so I guess I'm slipping away now. |