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Date: Thursday, November 8, 2012 Time: 6:47 PM You Asked Me What Is Feelings? ♥
Bismillah,
On no soul does God place a burden greater than it can bear.
it gets every good that it earns, and it suffers every ill that it earns.
Surah Al-Baqarah, Ayat 286
Yesterday is the last day of school in 2012. Can't say,I'm sad but I had such a great ending together but nevermind. I cried last night with no apparent reasons. I'm scared. I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't know what to feel. I don't know why I always feel this way. I feel terrible & useless. I'm tired & hurt. I don't know what to do. I spent my night wondering if is it even worth when someone makes a mistake,then you forgive them,then they repeat the same mistake with excuse like "Come on,I'm human. I make mistakes" . If that even legal,is it fair when my feelings isn't even count? Is it even fair when they hurts me then they only know how to say sorry until they out of breath? I guess no. Remember when we always ended up holding hands when we were nervous? Remember when we hugging each other when we're excited & to calm each other? Remember when we're running each other for help? Remember how we wish we could crying on each other shoulders? I gonna miss those things but now I guess you know how to deals with people in your life. I swear,I'm proud of you. I swear,I lied when I said I hate you & I don't care. I left. But not going to leave you but letting you go living your life your way. I'm sure you don't need me. Because I love you,I don't care being more hurts.
If they don't learn to leave and let go.
" But i'm going to preserve what little happiness i have left, no matter what."
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